I'm well, though sometimes I forget that.  

I think part of my silence on here has been due to my forgetting that I truly am well and blessed.  It's an exhausting thing to neglect the truth - to know with your head that one thing is correct but to feel something else completely incompatible.  Over the course of the last month, it occurred to me that my self-worth isn't what it should be (and it hasn't been for awhile)... this was illustrated through my relationships with the people around me and it was confirmed in the few moments when I would allow myself to actually listen to what God was telling me.  Too many times I've allowed myself to believe that my value could be found in how others thought of me, and it's hard to please everybody.  I know the truth is found when I'm authentically me** - it may not please everybody, but it allows me to sleep at night.

I'm getting used to biking in the city.

I realized the other day that I'm averaging about 15 miles a day on the days I ride.  Granted, we're still having some rainy/windy days (like today) and that prevents me from riding to work everyday, but those days are becoming less and less frequent and the soreness in my legs can attest to the workout they're getting***.  The funny thing is that I find myself racing when I ride alone - almost as though I'm training for something - so it's nice when I have someone else to ride with... the slower pace is necessary to maintain a conversation.  And it's always nice to have someone to enjoy a bike ride with!

I'm getting back in the saddle.

Since I've been in Indy, I've been working on finding my community and ways that I can plug into it.  Doors have been slowly opening and I've been afraid to turn down any opportunity that came my way, but the result has been an overbooked schedule resulting in an exhausted Kevvo who didn't have time to pursue things that mattered - including his blog.  That's changing.  It's a process, but I realized a couple weeks ago that I've been missing out on some of the more life-affirming things... volunteering, illustrating, spending time with God... and there's not really a good reason for that.  Things are better for me this year than they were last year at this time****, yet I seem to spend more time trying to catch up - and I intend to stop that!

I suppose this brings things (mostly) up to speed.  I do hope to be back here more regularly... there's actually a lot going on that I could post about... but it will have to find it's place in my priorities.

Until next time...